I’ve always had difficulty making decisions. More often than not, I find myself flipping a coin when I can’t make a choice or, in more extreme terms, using a basketball game to determine my decision. Working with my previous employer over another company was decided based on the outcome of a college basketball game that I was watching the night I received both offers. #truestory
I could blame the combination of being a female and a Libra for my lack of decision-making, but I realize those are just arbitrary excuses that I use more often than I want to.
It wasn’t until this past year that I’ve actually started making choices based on what I felt was right for me as opposed to letting other people or things decide for me.
Maybe it’s not so much decision making that’s difficult for me. Maybe it’s the fact that I had options, which all seemed appealing to me, and I was afraid to let one opportunity go. What it comes down to is that I have to continue to focus on one main goal/idea, and make clear and concise decisions based on what’s best for me.
I’m currently in the process of spearheading another big move that will more than likely change my life. This process is the scariest feeling I’ve experienced. Scarier than jumping out of a plane 13,000 feet in the air. Scarier than quitting my job. Scarier than leaving everything behind. Understanding what I’m feeling is something that I’ve learned recently.
Scary is good.
Something is brewing and the outcome is questionable, but at the same time, this feels right.